"There is a time for everything, and a season for every activity under the heavens: a time to be born and a time to die, a time to plant and a time to uproot, a time to kill and a time to heal, a time to tear down and a time to build, a time weep and a time to laugh, a time to mourn and a time to dance, a time to scatter stones and a time to gather them, a time to embrace and a time to refrain from embracing, a time to search and a time to give up, a time to keep and a time to throw away, a time to tear and a time to mend, a time to be silent and a time to speak, a time to love and a time to hate, a time for war and a time for peace."
-Ecclesiastes 3:1-8

Last night, I was watching my favorite kind of television--trashy television. I easily get lost in these awful "reality" shows on MTV and E! without directly realizing how much they warp my brain. (YES DAD, HERE YOU GO I AM ADMITTING THAT THE KARDASHIANS ARE ROTTING MY BRAIN!) One of the girls on The Real World said she was 21. I immediately turned the show off. She's a year younger than me, but I thought she was probably 26 or 27. It made me wish I was living her life, partying for free, sleeping all day, not having to work. But then I realized, that's not me. I have been in that stage of life (it didn't work out for me) and I am well beyond it. The people on TV are not me. They are in different parts of their life, and God has different plans for their life than He does for me. 

I have often written numerous times on here about how I fear the future. I live with anxiety about what is to come, but I have been working really hard to get beyond the anxiety that has plagued me for years. I quickly get lost in the hustle and bustle and forget that God has it all under control and that I need to trust Him. Seeing these girls on TV getting paid to date and party, or seeing friends who have their parents hand them money, or other friends getting engaged and having babies, can often leave me wondering about where I am at in life. I long for what everyone else has instead of enjoying where I am at in the moment.

I am in the perfect spot for me. I am exactly where God wants me to be in this moment...and so are you. Each of us are. I need to redirect my focus from what everyone else is doing and what is in the future and just enjoy this season of my life. I easily accept and enjoy the four seasons of the year, I need to do the same with the seasons of my life. 

While I may not be where I envisioned to be at 22, I am doing what needs to be done. I am growing, changing, learning, and developing a heart for the Lord and a heart to serve that couldn't be done if I didn't trust God's plan. Not all seasons are going to be sunshine and flowers, but they are going to help me grow into the woman Christ wants me to be.


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