Now that Mike Trout has signed a 6 year $144 million deal with the Angels, I can finally splurge on a Trout jersey. With the home opener tomorrow, I'm going to need lots of cute outfits for all the games I'll be going to this summer. Here's a favorite:

I was tagged by ciaoobelllaxo to do the TMI Tag a couple weeks ago & now I'm finally doing it! I promise I'll be honest! Here goes:

TMI TAG QUESTIONS:
1: What are you wearing? black spandex & a University of Northern Colorado tee
2: Ever been in love? yes & I am right now :)
3: Ever had a terrible breakup? yeah, but I'm glad because they brought me to James :)
4: How tall are you? 5'5.5"
5: How much do you weigh? 141.5 pounds and I cringe as I make this public information
6: Any tattoos? 1; Kira Kira in Scriptina in the center of my back VERY tiny, in honor of my grandfather Dorman
7: Any piercings? ears & forward helix
8: OTP? Nathan & Haley Scott
9: Favourite show? One Tree Hill
10: Favourite bands? meh I'm a singer kinda lady
11: Something you miss? my cousins in Colorado
12: Favourite song? It changes daily but right now it's Ride by SoMo
13: How old are you? 21
14: Zodiac sign? Libra, but some things say I'm a Virgo
15: Quality you look for in a partner? everything James has :)
16: Favourite Quote? all of Proverbs 31; its the kind of woman my grandmother was & the kind of woman I aspire to be
17: Favourite actor? Matthew McConaHOTTIE
18: Favourite color? pink & lilac
19: Loud music or soft? depends on the mood, soft in the moment
20: Where do you go when you're sad? drive to either Westlake or Lake Sherwood
21: How long does it take you to shower? I wish it took 30 minutes but my mom bangs on the door after 5
22: How long does it take you to get ready in the morning? lazy day-5 min, party night-35 min
23: Ever been in a physical fight? yes
24: Turn on? makes me giggle so hard my belly hurts
25: Turn off? foul mouths & liars
26: The reason I joined Youtube or Blogger? I wanted a place to write
27: Fears?  belly buttons
28: Last thing that made you cry? I don't remember...thank God 
29: Last time you said you loved someone? earlier on the phone
30: Meaning behind your Youtube/Blogger Name? It's just what you're doing when you check my page LOL
31: Last book you read? Sisterhood Everlasting by Ann Brashares
32: The book you're currently reading? The Happiness Project
33: Last show you watched? Parenthood
34: Last person you talked to? Elisa
35: The relationship between you and the person you last texted? She's my old roommate!
36: Favorite food? Italian
37: Place you want to visit? Sunriver PLEASE
38: Last place you were? Target
39: Do you have a crush? oh yaaa ;)
40: Last time you kissed someone? Sunday morning :(
41: Last time you were insulted? last night
42: Favorite flavor of sweet? huh
43: What instruments do you play? the belly drums ;)
44: Favorite piece of jewelry? anything that belonged to my beloved grandmother
45: Last sport you played? LOL is shopping a sport
46: Last song you sang? All Of Me
47: Favorite chat up line? none, no, never
48: Have you ever used it? see above
49: Last time you hung out with anyone? I hung with my friends last night
50: Who should answer these questions next? I'm tagging ALL OF YOU!

I started this post off with a list of beautiful places I've been in my life and all the great sites to see there. The mountains of Vail, the beaches of Bermuda, and the bars in San Diego. However, the hundreds of amazing vacations I've been on with friends and family don't amount to the summer trips in Sunriver, Oregon with my family.


My first memory I have is me crawling into the (unlit) fireplace at the Sunriver house to get my beloved Power Rangers watch out. Many more childhood memories take place there, especially the family reunions with all my cousins. Floating down the freezing cold river as a family is a summer tradition, but nothing tops the time my cousin Ben stood up in the canoe and in him and my aunt Dode went. We've enjoyed many great bike rides, pony rides, and trips to the observatory.



Sunriver is a place so dear to my heart. I appreciate my parents taking us there every summer and I am sorry that we have let the past few years slip as we have all grown up and moved away.



I hope one day my own children can experience the laughs I had at Fort Funnigan, the delicious treats at Goodie's Ice Cream Parlor, and the glow in the dark putt putt on warm summer nights. But most importantly I want them to know the place that made my childhood so great and a place that made me who I am.

Just as with nails, I was never a lipstick person until one of my roommates in college was a roommate fanatic. My first lipstick I ever purchased was made by Smashbox and wore it everyday for about a month until I got bored of the color. After that I purchased a few different Mac lipsticks, but realized I got bored with those colors too and wanted a wide variety of lipsticks so I could have different shades and finishes to fit the mood and look I was trying to reach. However, I could never buy variety with Mac on my budget, so I began using the Revlon Super Lustrous Lipstick. At about $5 per stick, I was able to buy 3 or 4 lipsticks for the price of 1 Mac lipstick. I chose Revlon over any other drugstore brand because it's the lipstick my grandma wore and now I understand why. 

While planning a concert on campus last fall, my roommate began to tell me of the crazy things that were on some of the artists riders. A rider is a list of all there wants and "needs" in the dressing room backstage and they will ask for anything and everything to make them feel comfortable while on the road. A popular request? Fresh underwear. It seems artists don't want to do laundry on the road, or better yet have someone do it for them, so they are given new drawers at every venue they play. Some of the requests are crazier and more time consuming, such as Jennifer Lopez wanting all white everything...white flowers, curtains, furniture, and walls.

Here are more crazy celebrity requests:

• Kanye West: Any driver he has must wear 100% cotton clothing
• The Foo Fighters: Coloring books 
• Cher: A separate dressing room for all her wigs
• Beyonce: Dressing room must be kept at exactly 78 degrees
• Rihanna: No visible lockers or bricks, they must be covered with white drapes
• Will Ferrell: A fake tree on wheels
• David Hasselhoff: A life sized cut out of himself
• Prince: A physician to give a B12 shot
• Jennifer Hudson: Baked chicken wings (for breakfast)

There are so many things I have discovered about life in the past three months since I graduated. Some of them were things I was warned about and chose not to listen to. Some of them are things that were painful and exhausting to learn. Others were things I'm proud of. Here's what I've been warning all my May graduates about, although I know many of them will choose to find out the hard way:

1. Your friendships will change, end, grow, and transform. I've managed to stay friends with most of the people I was friends with in college. Some of those girls I haven't seen since I moved out in December, others I've seen more than I saw in my two years at CLU. Some I talk to everyday and others are simply a like on Instagram.
2. You will want to throw away all stability. Everything in life is so rocky when you graduate, that the stable things make you want to run away. Because everything was so uncertain, I didn't know how to handle the things that I was certain about, especially my relationship. I have had many freak outs, but luckily my boyfriend understands how I feel since he was in my position a year ago, and has been encouraging, supportive, and loyal.
3. It's okay to take a breath. A lot of my friends who are still in school gave me a lot of crap for not working for awhile after graduating. However, all the older people who have been long out of my position told me to enjoy my days of having no responsibility and binge watching Netflix, because I will NEVER be able to do it again, ESPECIALLY when I have kids.
4. It's okay to ask for help. I was very depressed beginning about three weeks after graduating, until about two weeks ago. It was a very difficult transition for me to be in school for 18 years and then suddenly no longer have any structure and any routine. I realized it's okay to ask for help from your family, friends, and even professionals. It's worth it to talk to someone instead of letting things build inside of you.
5. You are not the only person who has ever felt this way. I felt like the only person on earth who had felt these emotions. I thought that no one understood me and no one sympathized with me. However, a lot of people have been in this post-grad limbo and a lot more people will. Talk to them. Get advice. And prepare to give advice to those in the future.
6. Stay true to your gut. There were jobs I could've taken and I wouldn't have been happy. There was a job I took and I knew it wasn't right for me. I didn't have to find a career that I will be in for the rest of my life, but I did need to find a job I would wake up and not dread going to every day.
7. Nothing will go as planned. A year ago when asked what I would be doing after graduation, I had a whole nice beautiful plan lined up with lots of money, my own apartment, and a job I love. HA! Dream on. I'm broke, living with my parents, and working two jobs that pay slightly above minimum wage.
8. You're going to cry...a lot. All I've done is cry. I cry because I never see my friends. I cry because I still live at home. I cry because I'm a planner and NONE of this is part of my plan. I cry because I have one too many Jell-O Shots on St. Patrick's Day and someone makes me sad. I have 18 emotions a day, which no isn't healthy, but is all part of figuring out what the heck I'm doing here right now.
9. It's lonely. This goes along with #5, but you will feel like no one understands you. Especially graduating mid-year like I did. I only had one other friend graduate in December and she's 500 miles away. So many times I have felt so alone in this transition, even when I'm surrounded by people.
10. Graduating college is a huge accomplishment. Be proud! You worked your butt off for four years, or three and a half or five, or however long it took you, BE PROUD! It takes a lot of time, effort, motivation, all-nighters, and support from those who love you to graduate, so enjoy the fact that you've made it this far, and you will continue to do great things!

Wearing. Black leggings, White cami, Hanger 221 Black Hi-Lo button up tank. The coziest socks in America.

Feeling. Restless. I really just want to lay in bed & watch TV, but I'm forcing myself to do a little bit more today.

Watching. You caught me. The Fabulous Life of Nicki Minaj....and boy is it fabulous. She pays her nail lady (whose name is Kandi Yamz) $11,000 a month just to do her nails only. This isn't including the cost of nails & travel expenses to wherever Nicki is in the moment.

Eating. Nothing. Just got back from lunch at Jersey Mike's with mom.

Needing. A hot bath, back massage, glass of champagne, and a pedicure. (Okay, Nicki is getting to me.)

Thankful for. My boyfriend. Baby Nette. A roof over my head.

Dreaming. of the day I'll get paid to write.

Wanting. a weekend getaway, preferably to the beach.

Loving. my new Sweet Spun Sugar soy candle from Target.

Clicking. Off Season for Coaches My boyfriend retweeted this from Football Scoop and I couldn't get enough. I love that he loves what he's doing. I love that I'm part of this life. The fall can be hectic for coaches and their families, but it's all 100% worth it.

The hardest part about graduating has been that none of my friends are on the same page as me. Because I graduated a semester early, none of them get what I'm going through. They have an impression that I don't do much all day, (yes some days this is true) and that I'm always available for spontaneous beach days and late night drinks at their leisure. They get annoyed when they ask my spring break plans and I remind them that HELLO there is NO spring break after college! Very few people understand my current emotions and many people think I'm overreacting with my worries, fears, and anxieties. Where I am now is nowhere near where I expected to be. My plans have gone completely off course and my friendships have drastically changed. I've struggled to find people who I can connect with emotionally and physically. The only person who truly gets it is the person who was in my shoes six months ago, my boyfriend, James, and for that I'm truly grateful.

I guess this is all part of growing up.

I've already made my dislike for Juan Pablo from The Bachelor known once before on my blog. But after finally watching last night's finale and after the final rose special, I am disgusted by this man's behavior.

How a man with a 5 year old daughter at home, who is likely to be viewing her dad's TV show, can speak so sexually explicit and disrespectfully to the women he is dating is beyond me. His comments whispered to Clare privately to Clare in the helicopter were so repulsive that I do not want to give them a place on my blog. If you're curious, you can Google it. Although I was not a Clare fan this season, I was proud of her for sticking up to him. I too would NEVER want a man like that raising my children.

While I respect his decision not to propose to Nikki, I don't appreciate the fact that he told her he had the ring in his pocket. Why would you taunt a women who loves you like that? And the fact that after five months of dating he can't tell her he loves her....run for the hills Nikki.

Even Chris Harrison and The Bachelor producers are thrilled JP's season is over...as are Bachelor fans everywhere.